Wow how things change

Within a few weeks my life and turned around and I have moved on. I have been out on dates, the first few unsuccessful but not hideous and now I have met a really nice guy who likes me for me. He is not put off by my widow label, loud voice or excessive talking. It has been fun and slightly raunchy. Wow what a boost to my confidence and self esteem.
Who would have thought this time last year I would be a positive and excited person actually looking forward to Christmas.

Dating

I have started down the dating path. I have managed 2 outings and a ball. Very scary after so long. Quite different and refreshing to know that I am doing ok and better than some.

Almost Normal

Almost normal is the feeling I have had for 2 months. Apart from feeling like crap for the past 2 weeks, I am now realising what it is to feel back to normal. It is really strange to think that I can fell sane again. Now I realise how others in my situation can finally start to move on.
I believe I can finally go out and start flirting - nothing else yet - but flirting definately.

BUGGAH

Just when things are settling down I find a lump and have to have it checked. It further brings home the fact I am on my own and this is the worst possible thing to have to go through on your own.

Uugghhh

Feeling unfit, flabby and alone. Just going through the motions. Each day rolls into the next and sometimes I wonder what is the point to it all. Can't be arsed getting off my arse which compounds and the before mentioned issues. Soooo I suppose life continues and me along with it. Just once I would like someone ring and check on me or someone offer me an evening out. But no another weekend looms with only Cadbree as company.
Time for chocolate to hell with the consequences noone is going to see me anyway!!!

Sick dog

Had to take my dog to the vet today and it brought a flood of memories. Last time I went to the vet Terry was with me and then the cat died. All I could think of was yet another precious part of my life was going to be lost. Have to wait to see if the medicine works before the next step of surgery. Life just keeps getting better and better.